I said, "I love you" for a formality.

Isn't this an innovative way to express your feelings? well friends, this is what my husband told me a few days before we got married, only to realize later that it's true!

was I hurt when I was told this? or, was I angry? Did I  feel let down, under-estimated, indignified, slapped right across my face...well I guess ....

I got married carrying a host of dreams...of a small and spacious house, a lovely relationship, peace and harmony in the family, a loving and caring husband, two pretty kids nd nothing but a million colour rainbow to unfold a new hue everyday.

well, everything is same besides a few modifications made by lady destiny....like the house is really spacious but cluttered with all the quarrels and restlessness and negativity in the air, relationship is there but it is kind of love you for a formality sorts, peace and harmony is there in the family but is somehow missing between me and my husband, I have a husband but its just that he doubts me more than he loves me and cares for me...and yeah! the kids, I don't even dream about having one, forget two, because, I shudder at the thought of the unhealthy atmosphere that am having in store for them...and the million colour rainbow has metamorphosed into nothing but million shades of grey.

Reminds me of the song-"Love me for a reason, let the reason be love!"