It's all about money honey!

At times luck turns up in the strangest ways. It all of a sudden showers you with something that you have been dying for, but in such a disguised and contorted manner that you shiver to even think about it, but cleverly keeps you away from your deepest wishes and desires.

Well, for the past some time I've been frantically looking for a job because, firstly, I get too bugged sitting at home; secondly I am getting dumb sitting at home; thirdly am suffering from severe identity crisis; fourthly am missing my lot of friends and the fun package deal; fifthly I badly want to keep myself occupied in a constructive way and fifthly...Yes, IT IS ABOUT MONEY HONEY!

Ahh! At last I have almost got a job with quite a reasonable salary. The workplace is an international BPO where I don't know how many people are dying to get through and I don't know who's chances I've ruined by walking in there. Lady Luck, kept on knocking my doors till I finally opened one and decided to walk out, alone and in the dark. Yes the job requires me to be exclusively in night shifts.....Oooh! Now, there's the punch of the deal. Was this what I was exactly looking for? I belong to a somewhat conservative background and I can recall my elders saying,"girls of decent families don't walk out in the dark". And, although I hate to say this, am almost on the verge of breaking the good girls characteristic. God! I know how much I detest joining here but I have to because I don't have any other option. I always hated woking in call centres and BPOs and always looked down on them who worked there, but like someone has said, what goes around, comes around. I can't beleive that I actually consented for this job, but I guess.....

I sit alone today, feeling terribly guilty because I am ashaming my parents (is this what they had educated me so much for), and being dishonest with myself-is this what my highest aspirations were, is this what I dreamed of myself as, is this what I wanted to be....and....IS IT ACTUALLY ABOUT MONEY HONEY?